It has been several months since I have posted anything here, as I have been going through quite a year of transformation. I have seen the results of some of my spells from last year come to fruition in ways that I wasn't expecting. While 2012 was one of the most difficult years of my life, things have completely turned around for me this year. There is still much transition that I am going through, and I am seeing the full force of the Tower card from the tarot being played out. Transformation can be a wonderful, yet painful thing. Just as labor pains come before the blessing of a child, so it can be in our lives for positive changes to take place.
I spent a little over a year in a very toxic, abusive relationship. Even now, I have a hard time saying that out loud. Not only did I live with fear, but also with shame. I was ashamed that I allowed myself to get in this situation. I was ashamed that as a witch I felt so powerless to get out of it. Still yet, the ways of the gods are not always like our ways. I put my trust in their care and looked for changes to come to my home. I would do spells for cleansing, protection, and peace over my home. I would pray to my lady Hestia for her blessing over my home. Still I felt, at the time, that those prayers were going unanswered. That my spellwork was ineffective and useless. Why was it that I could work magick for others and was always able to give wise counsel to others. Yet for myself, it seemed like my life was stuck in a trap.
That, however, was only one phase of my life that I can gladly say has now passed. I am no longer in that relationship, and my life is being rebuilt. I have entered a new relationship with someone who is showing me daily what love really means. Though it may seem too soon to be in another relationship....it happened. I wasn't expecting to meet someone else so soon, or ever for that matter. But it happened, and I'm loving every minute of it. Things are still continually changing for me now. But I'm learning that when the winds of change begin to blow, embrace it. Except it. Learn lifes lessons and grow. As the saying goes....what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
